Goodbye

Saying goodbye and bidding farewell is something that I am not good at and probably never will. I never expect that she to leave me or rather us (our close group of mates) that soon. Yes I am referring to my good old best friend of more than a decade old and probably our friendship will goes on till my very last breathe (or rather till I am way too old to even go visit her at her new residence over in Bedok).

She left us behind - it was difficult but also a great comfort as she was suffering bitterly and painfully on the inside. The treatments are tough and great discomfort to her - she has chose to bite the bullet and go ahead. But never did I expect that my dear old friend to face death so bravely. She prepared her own funeral and decided how she wants her photo to look like and her wake. I take my hat off her seriously. That set me really thinking - will I be as well prepared as her? am I going to be ready for all that when my time comes?

With more than 10 years of good memories she has left me, I really appreciate she has been there to walk me through my graduation and everything other little things (be it minor or major). The only regrets I probably have with her was that she is not in time to see her one and only god-daughter turning 1 and me finishing up that PhD program.

Despite feeling frustrated and yes I am still grieving over her passing - I know she will most probably smile and tell me - do whatever you can and you have set out for. Don't look back and regret in life.

Thank you J, for walking me through all my ups and downs and being able to read me like a book, bearing with me and those good old memories. I will be sure to yes get/burn you some LVs and stuffs at the other world.